I’m doing well but it still hurts. As always. Writing is hard. I hate putting words to my feelings because it means they’re real. I can’t pretend the loss of him didn’t scar me. But I’ve learned that processing that pain is tricky. Still it needs to be done. Which is why I try to… Continue reading Widowhood Season 9.02–Finch Task 1
Superstition, Stevie Wonder, Talking Book Talking Book is one of “those” albums for Kevin and I. Listened to it in Maui. The horn section is the peanut butter to the clavinet’s jelly, and the drums are the bread. “When you believe in things that you don’t understand, then you suffer” counts as one of the… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.14: Keep me in a daydream
The King of Rock and Roll, Prefab Sprout, Two Weels Good/Steve McQueen Ah, yes, Prefab Sprout, some rather find britpop, if I may say so. Vaguely remember when Kevin played their stuff for me for the first time. I’m pretty sure this song was one of the first ones. It was one of the most… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.12: All the pathos you can keep
From the Beginning, ELP, Trilogy I did hear this when I was away in college, thanks to a neighbor. But then Kevin played it and said it was how he felt about me. What girl could resist such great vocals . . . and those dreamy solos? I wish I could say for sure that… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.10: But There It Is
Two of Us, The Beatles, Let It Be My seminal memory of this song is Kevin and I driving in his ’67 Mustang fastback, circa 1997 going to visit his Dad on a Sunday. (It might have been on the way to NAMM. Again, it was awhile back!) It was a bright day, not too… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.6: Doris gets her oats
Two Against Nature, Steely Dan, Two Against Nature Out of all the wonderful music Kevin introduced me to, Steely Dan has had the deepest impact on my soul. Their music is full of cynical sentiments set to music expressing a wide variety of emotions that I could lose myself in whenever I was feeling something… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.4: The Boys from Bard
Eggplant, Michael Franks, The Art of Tea I first became aware of Michael Franks in 1998. Kevin bought the CD A Backwards Glance as an introduction. (Probably before we got ADSL.) My life was improved the day my ears met his music for the first time. Yes, I know I said that about Metheny, but… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.3: A Love Poet
5-5-7, Pat Metheny Group, Letter From Home I will forever associate Pat Metheny with Kevin because he’s the one who would download random songs featuring this wonderful jazz guitarist and play them for me. There are so many songs I could have picked, but I chose this one because it reminds me of Kevin and… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.2: Jazz Guitar
Breakout, Swing Out Sister, It’s Better to Travel Circa 1997 (Maybe ’96? I was probably living with him, but I can’t remember for sure), we were in the Toluca Lake apartment, listening to music, when this song starts to fill the room. (Was he playing the cassette that would later play regularly in our kitchen… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.1: Breakout
A Dirt Fam member inspired me to do something different this Season. Heck, I didn’t even write about last season. Guess therapy was an adequate substitute. 🙂 This year, I have chosen 14 songs that I associate with Kevin. This year I’ll write a little about them. It was hard to narrow it down–even now… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8: 14 Songs