Watching Mad Men courtesy of a week trial. That’s all I’m going to need or rather allow myself to indulge in. Went to a cousin’s wedding last weekend. It was a wonderful time, and it was great to have been there to see two souls vow to live as one. It’s always a little odd… Continue reading Widowhood Season 9.01
Inspired by https://www.jennettemccurdy.com/ When I was 14, I was weighed at the doctor’s office and they had to adjust the scale’s base to 100 for the first time in my life. Internally, I freaked the fuck out and didn’t allow that to happen again until I was 26 and dealing with my anorexia for the… Continue reading Hard Feelings #1: From Olive Oyl to Smoliv
Sometimes grieving someone is like having to fly in the clouds. The instruments of life say you’re plodding along as normal, but for some damn reason beyond your control, you have to be surrounded by clouds. When do you get to stop flying in them? When you find airspace without them. Until then, keep moving… Continue reading In the Clouds
Another year. As usual, winter doesn’t start until January. Need the rain, natch. Why is it so hard for me to take the time to write unless I put a little pressure on myself? (This time, a task on Finch. I highly recommend the app, btw.) Scored some great booze via a vendor today. I… Continue reading Mostly Narrative Freewriting #14: 2024(!)
It’s one of those days, man. They say the times are changing but I just don’t knowThese things are gone foreverOver a long time ago, oh yeah Pretzel Logic, Steely Dan Live Music Highlights: Devo and The Musical Box. May or may not revisit these in this entry. My holy trinity still remains my holy… Continue reading Mostly Narrative Freewriting #13
Content warning: death, dying with dignity, suicide. Skip this if it’s gonna trigger you, and go watch baby animals or dark memes or whatever’ll boost your dopamine. To be fair, losing Kevin was pretty traumatic, and I find it easiest to process these feelings via writing. We “put animals out of their misery” when living… Continue reading This blog is pretty much just about Kevin, isn’t it?
Superstition, Stevie Wonder, Talking Book Talking Book is one of “those” albums for Kevin and I. Listened to it in Maui. The horn section is the peanut butter to the clavinet’s jelly, and the drums are the bread. “When you believe in things that you don’t understand, then you suffer” counts as one of the… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.14: Keep me in a daydream
Siberian Khatru, Yes, Close To The Edge To me, this song is the prog equivalent to a movie using a “party song” to tie everything up in a neat bow and play until the credits finish rolling. Does this mourning really get easier with time? Apparently so. But then again, other things have popped up… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.13: The mo(u)rning that comes into view
The King of Rock and Roll, Prefab Sprout, Two Weels Good/Steve McQueen Ah, yes, Prefab Sprout, some rather find britpop, if I may say so. Vaguely remember when Kevin played their stuff for me for the first time. I’m pretty sure this song was one of the first ones. It was one of the most… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.12: All the pathos you can keep
Firth of Fifth, Genesis, Selling England By the Pound This has to be one of my favorite Genesis songs. I think if someone wanted an example of 70’s prog rock, I might bust this one out. It’s not This is one of the first early Genesis songs Kevin played for me in our earliest days.… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.11: ‘Til lured by the siren’s cry