Surf’s Up, The Beach Boys, Surf’s Up Back in the days before music was easy (and free) to obtain, if you damaged your copy of an album, you pretty much lost your ability to hear that music until you obtained a copy again. Both Kevin and I grew up listening to The Beach Boys. However,… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.5: The child is father of the man
Two Against Nature, Steely Dan, Two Against Nature Out of all the wonderful music Kevin introduced me to, Steely Dan has had the deepest impact on my soul. Their music is full of cynical sentiments set to music expressing a wide variety of emotions that I could lose myself in whenever I was feeling something… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.4: The Boys from Bard
Eggplant, Michael Franks, The Art of Tea I first became aware of Michael Franks in 1998. Kevin bought the CD A Backwards Glance as an introduction. (Probably before we got ADSL.) My life was improved the day my ears met his music for the first time. Yes, I know I said that about Metheny, but… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.3: A Love Poet
Breakout, Swing Out Sister, It’s Better to Travel Circa 1997 (Maybe ’96? I was probably living with him, but I can’t remember for sure), we were in the Toluca Lake apartment, listening to music, when this song starts to fill the room. (Was he playing the cassette that would later play regularly in our kitchen… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8.1: Breakout
A Dirt Fam member inspired me to do something different this Season. Heck, I didn’t even write about last season. Guess therapy was an adequate substitute. 🙂 This year, I have chosen 14 songs that I associate with Kevin. This year I’ll write a little about them. It was hard to narrow it down–even now… Continue reading Widowhood Season 8: 14 Songs
SB, Of course I’m writing on the 25th anniversary of us finding each other on AOL. That day changed my life. 3/1/1996 truly was the beginning of my life with you. (And it some ways, my life began again 19 years later…) For so many years, I thought we’d celebrate this day together with the… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #6: The Beginning Was the End (a letter)
I’ve written before about some issues I had related to painkillers, sense memory, and survivor’s guilt. Here’s a little more: How does a widow process whatever emotion’s being pinged by some lower back pain brought on due to her spending a chunk of Saturday working on wiring while sitting on the ground? Like this I… Continue reading Pain as a Sense Memory Trigger
Kevin, It’s been 4 years and 4 days since you died. I’ve come quite a long way in that time. I’ve grown as a person and I’m happy with my life. Much of what you said was true–I’ve received tons of support and help, and I do not miss caretaking. I kept my promise and… Continue reading A Patently Open Letter to my Dead Husband