SB, Of course I’m writing on the 25th anniversary of us finding each other on AOL. That day changed my life. 3/1/1996 truly was the beginning of my life with you. (And it some ways, my life began again 19 years later…) For so many years, I thought we’d celebrate this day together with the… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #6: The Beginning Was the End (a letter)
This will be kinda rambly. It’s definitely along the narrative freewriting route, but focused on talking about mental health issues. Hey, the brain is an organ that can go wonky, like many other organs in our bodies. The more we talk about it, the better off we’ll be. It really does make a difference to… Continue reading Mental Health Adventures #1: Stability Quest
How does one tell their boss “Your management style isn’t good for my mental health”? That’s not something people are used to articulating. But yet that’s what I find myself wanting to do. Granted, my mental health hasn’t been ideal for awhile. I was doing a good job functioning reasonably well. Then there was that… Continue reading How? (Freewriting)
11/2018 There used to be this notion that a widow/er had to wait a specific amount of time after their spouse died to date again. I’ve contended for about a decade that the only two people who truly understand a marriage are the two people who are in it. Alongside that, when that marriage is… Continue reading Sometimes, Wanting To Get Married Isn’t About Marriage
I just finished reading Priscilla Presley’s book about her time with Elvis. Last year, I bought Mayte Garcia’s audiobook about her time with Prince. Sure, Kevin was just an excellent tech, not a worldwide musical sensation. . . but I saw some similarities that had nothing to do with profession. So it got me thinking.… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #5: The May/December Thing
Kevin came up with the following joke. Most people agree it’s the worst pun in the world. 🙂 This is by no means the “gospel version” of this joke, but as close to Kevin’s version as I can remember. Eddie Van Halen had a little dog who loved to watch him play guitar. The dog… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #4: The Worst Pun In The World
When asked, I don’t usually tell people how Kevin died unless I trust the person. I just say that he was sick and in pain for a long time. It’s not that I’m ashamed of his suicide, because I’m not. I don’t want to deal with people’s reactions. People don’t truly understand that particular type… Continue reading Widow by Suicide
I remarked to my favorite Maternal cousin the other day that I was still getting used to being seen as desirable by my Sweeties. Meds have caused some weight gain, and I’ll be on them for a bit longer, it seems. But that doesn’t matter to them. It’s wonderful yet hard to accept. In my… Continue reading Narrative Mostly Freewriting #6: Self Image
So, you’re contemplating killing yourself. Indeed a tough decision. However, there’s a few things you should know before make your attempt. Before I continue, I know there are several common reasons people contemplate suicide. I’d like to address a few of them. If you suffer from a mental illness or are healing from trauma, let… Continue reading If You’re Suicidal, Read This
Sitting on the couch, listening to Birdland, Weather Report style. Low key dancing because I want to write, not move around. Widowhood Season #6 is coming to a close. It’s the time I allow myself to be a little more pensive about Kevin and that era of my life. Ah, Goodbye Pork Pie Hat is… Continue reading Narrative Mostly Freewriting #5