11/2018 There used to be this notion that a widow/er had to wait a specific amount of time after their spouse died to date again. I’ve contended for about a decade that the only two people who truly understand a marriage are the two people who are in it. Alongside that, when that marriage is… Continue reading Sometimes, Wanting To Get Married Isn’t About Marriage
I just finished reading Priscilla Presley’s book about her time with Elvis. Last year, I bought Mayte Garcia’s audiobook about her time with Prince. Sure, Kevin was just an excellent tech, not a worldwide musical sensation. . . but I saw some similarities that had nothing to do with profession. So it got me thinking.… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #5: The May/December Thing
Kevin came up with the following joke. Most people agree it’s the worst pun in the world. 🙂 This is by no means the “gospel version” of this joke, but as close to Kevin’s version as I can remember. Eddie Van Halen had a little dog who loved to watch him play guitar. The dog… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #4: The Worst Pun In The World
When asked, I don’t usually tell people how Kevin died unless I trust the person. I just say that he was sick and in pain for a long time. It’s not that I’m ashamed of his suicide, because I’m not. I don’t want to deal with people’s reactions. People don’t truly understand that particular type… Continue reading Widow by Suicide
I remarked to my favorite Maternal cousin the other day that I was still getting used to being seen as desirable by my Sweeties. Meds have caused some weight gain, and I’ll be on them for a bit longer, it seems. But that doesn’t matter to them. It’s wonderful yet hard to accept. In my… Continue reading Narrative Mostly Freewriting #6: Self Image
So, you’re contemplating killing yourself. Indeed a tough decision. However, there’s a few things you should know before make your attempt. Before I continue, I know there are several common reasons people contemplate suicide. I’d like to address a few of them. If you suffer from a mental illness or are healing from trauma, let… Continue reading If You’re Suicidal, Read This
Sitting on the couch, listening to Birdland, Weather Report style. Low key dancing because I want to write, not move around. Widowhood Season #6 is coming to a close. It’s the time I allow myself to be a little more pensive about Kevin and that era of my life. Ah, Goodbye Pork Pie Hat is… Continue reading Narrative Mostly Freewriting #5
Kevin’s birthday is August 10th. Made plans to visit a friend, as I requested the day off. Some may find it hard to believe that I still see Kevin as my soulmate. Well, he was. It was a bond like no other. When it was good, it was really really good, and when it was… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #3: Amour without Fou
I’ve had a new apartment with Sweetie for three weeks. I’m still trying to get used to it. Sweetie got a job in June while I was on vacation with him and Darling. It was a great opportunity, so off he went. That signaled that it was finally time to look for a place. (It… Continue reading Year Six
Darling is here for a few days. It feels so much more like home when he’s here. After all, that’s why we got a 2 bedroom. 🙂 The three of us will need the room. Plus the stepcats need a place away from the rest of the house because Sweetie’s allergic. (Yep, Cat Room #2!)… Continue reading Hey, it’s August!