Kevin’s birthday is August 10th. Made plans to visit a friend, as I requested the day off. Some may find it hard to believe that I still see Kevin as my soulmate. Well, he was. It was a bond like no other. When it was good, it was really really good, and when it was… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #3: Amour without Fou
I’ve had a new apartment with Sweetie for three weeks. I’m still trying to get used to it. Sweetie got a job in June while I was on vacation with him and Darling. It was a great opportunity, so off he went. That signaled that it was finally time to look for a place. (It… Continue reading Year Six
Darling is here for a few days. It feels so much more like home when he’s here. After all, that’s why we got a 2 bedroom. 🙂 The three of us will need the room. Plus the stepcats need a place away from the rest of the house because Sweetie’s allergic. (Yep, Cat Room #2!)… Continue reading Hey, it’s August!
This Pride Month, I’m coming out as Polyamorous. I am currently in a triad relationship with two awesome men. Sweetie, who I’ve been with for the better part of 5 years, and Darling, who I’ve been with for about 6 months. (They’ve been seeing each other a year or so.) This means that the we’re… Continue reading Three of A Perfect Pair
Picture it, 1994: Southern California I hear this song on the radio, and I saw the video. Immediately loved it. It was soothing at a rough time in my life. 1994 was not an easy year for a whole number of reasons. This song was like a drug–it would take me away from my problems… Continue reading Black Hole Sun: The Song That Changed My Life
I’m sitting here listening to The Beatles album Let It Be. Much like Pink Floyd’s Dark Side of The Moon, The Beach Boys’ Pet Sounds, and Suzanne Vega’s 9 Objects of Desire, this album reminds me so much of Kevin that I’ve actively refrained from listening to it until now. I don’t know what changed… Continue reading Surviving Amor Fou, #2: Music
I had a boyfriend from 1990 to 1995 that I used to call Dearie. I didn’t realize how abusive it was until just before we broke up, when a good friend kept pointing out that I shouldn’t tolerate Dearie’s behavior. I recently found my journal from the last year or so of that relationship. Here’s… Continue reading Relationship Red Flag Journal Entry #1
a·mour fou/ˌämo͝or ˈfo͞o/noun uncontrollable or obsessive passion. I was first introduced to this concept when watching The Sopranos with Kevin. Tony Soprano fell in love with one of Dr. Melfi’s other patients and had quite a tumultuous time of it. I kind of had a feeling at the time I watched those episodes that my… Continue reading Surviving Amor Fou, #1: Panic Attacks
I’m trying to get in the habit of taking a long drive on the weekends. I’ve done it a couple times. The first time I had clutch issues (slave cylinder), and that put the habit on hold for awhile. Now I’m determined not to let the car sit for too long without being driven. Around… Continue reading Sunday Driving and Freewriting
I remember years ago, the “New Normal” for me was being grateful for the gift of a wheelchair so Kevin could go out without having to walk around. These days, it means spending a lot of time in my room. I’m fortunate to have been working from home for the past 8 weeks. I love… Continue reading Another New Normal