{"id":604,"date":"2025-11-21T22:25:50","date_gmt":"2025-11-21T22:25:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/?p=604"},"modified":"2025-11-21T22:25:50","modified_gmt":"2025-11-21T22:25:50","slug":"more-freewriting","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/more-freewriting\/","title":{"rendered":"More freewriting"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Why yes, my soul is screaming for my soulmate because 29 years ago we were on the verge of the trip to Tahiti. Thanksgiving was ours, and as I’ve probably written many times before, I can’t help but think about Kevin during this time of year. Well, not a day has gone by in the last 4,148 days that I haven’t<\/em> thought of him. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

TKD is going well. I’m so glad I finally get to be a purple belt! Out of all the places I’ve studied, this one is by far the best. Mastering the sweet spot of discipline and nurturing is not easy, but Master has it down! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s hard to sit and write though. I’m not completely sure why. Is it because there’s so much in my head that it’s hard to figure out what to address? Possibly. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Disassociating is easier I suppose. Losing myself in mindless games that engage my brain but not my soul seems to be the ideal activity for me lately.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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