{"id":374,"date":"2021-07-08T19:20:00","date_gmt":"2021-07-08T19:20:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/?p=374"},"modified":"2023-06-27T02:36:27","modified_gmt":"2023-06-27T02:36:27","slug":"widowhood-season-6-4-survivors-guilt","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/widowhood-season-6-4-survivors-guilt\/","title":{"rendered":"Widowhood Season 6.4: Survivor&#8217;s Guilt"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p><em>Using the day off you&#8217;re taking because you just can&#8217;t go to work on your widowhood anniversary, to attend to your medical needs, using your insurance and FasTrack pass to drive out to where the referral is. <\/em>Seriously? <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>The nerve&#8230; After all, you failed. You even forgave him before he died. You didn&#8217;t know what the mourning would be like, and yet you forgave him?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Gotta love survivor&#8217;s guilt. I need the damn MRI because of a dumb choice 30 years ago that resulted in a lovely compression fracture on my L1.(An alternate universe has me the parent of a 29 year old, had I made a different dumb choice that day.) Now that area is not happy with me. X-ray wasn&#8217;t detailed enough, so it&#8217;s MRI time.(My upper back is mostly muscle- related pain, as the specialist expected.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I did what I could for Kevin. You fight the good fight as best you can and accept defeat gracefully.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;ve done my best to create a new life for myself these past 7 years.  I&#8217;ve been delayed by grief more than I expected.  Significant losses of loved ones are hell to go though. Full stop. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I love where I am in life, by and large.  It&#8217;s like I&#8217;m finally figuring out who I really am for the first time in my life. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Speaking of which, Darling said supper&#8217;s ready. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Using the day off you&#8217;re taking because you just can&#8217;t go to work on your widowhood anniversary, to attend to your medical needs, using your insurance and FasTrack pass to drive out to where the referral is. Seriously? The nerve&#8230; After all, you failed. You even forgave him before he died. You didn&#8217;t know what&hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/widowhood-season-6-4-survivors-guilt\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Widowhood Season 6.4: Survivor&#8217;s Guilt<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[2,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-374","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-daphne","category-journal"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p8fVx5-62","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/374","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=374"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/374\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":376,"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/374\/revisions\/376"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=374"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=374"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/minimoog.net\/daphne\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=374"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}