(By that I mean, I’m writing in a Starbucks. Though I’m not drinking coffee and I’m using my own internet. So why am I here? It’s right near a dispensary/dab bar, so I didn’t have to think about driving until after the dab wears off. DUI’s are something to avoid) Had a nice little moment… Continue reading Normie Mode: On
I saw The Rocky Horror Picture Show for the first time in 20 years tonight. This was my 21st time watching it in a theater. The first time way back in November 1993 in Long Beach. I went on and off for the next few years. As a young college kid, was one of the… Continue reading Mostly Narrative Freewriting #10: Return to an Old Favorite
7/14 was full of doctor’s appointments. Maybe keeping busy would help? Ah yes, the routine appointments: therapy and meds review. I can has stability. Now to maintain it. MRI, mercifully short and not as traumatic. I knew what to expect. Still, I hope to see what my back looks like 30 years on. Looking at… Continue reading Widowhood Season 6.5: Anniversary Episode
Using the day off you’re taking because you just can’t go to work on your widowhood anniversary, to attend to your medical needs, using your insurance and FasTrack pass to drive out to where the referral is. Seriously? The nerve… After all, you failed. You even forgave him before he died. You didn’t know what… Continue reading Widowhood Season 6.4: Survivor’s Guilt
Writing this on mobile, forgive me if it goes astray… Gotta start writing this way if I want to write more often. Which I do. “Do you want to go to a Hardcore Party nearby?” As the cliche goes, that’s the last question I expected of my Sweetie last night. Yet, it was just what… Continue reading Mostly Narrative Freewriting #8: Friday Night Hardcore Party
Why the hell should we try to prevent society from becoming kinder and more accepting? We know greed isn’t good, for so many reasons that have happened in our lifetime. We’re smart enough to know that bigotry really doesn’t have a place in society. We want “old fashioned” thinking to die out, and the art… Continue reading Narrative Mostly Freewriting #7: Gen X Speaking Up
SB, Of course I’m writing on the 25th anniversary of us finding each other on AOL. That day changed my life. 3/1/1996 truly was the beginning of my life with you. (And it some ways, my life began again 19 years later…) For so many years, I thought we’d celebrate this day together with the… Continue reading Surviving Amour Fou #6: The Beginning Was the End (a letter)
This will be kinda rambly. It’s definitely along the narrative freewriting route, but focused on talking about mental health issues. Hey, the brain is an organ that can go wonky, like many other organs in our bodies. The more we talk about it, the better off we’ll be. It really does make a difference to… Continue reading Mental Health Adventures #1: Stability Quest
11/2018 There used to be this notion that a widow/er had to wait a specific amount of time after their spouse died to date again. I’ve contended for about a decade that the only two people who truly understand a marriage are the two people who are in it. Alongside that, when that marriage is… Continue reading Sometimes, Wanting To Get Married Isn’t About Marriage
So, you’re contemplating killing yourself. Indeed a tough decision. However, there’s a few things you should know before make your attempt. Before I continue, I know there are several common reasons people contemplate suicide. I’d like to address a few of them. If you suffer from a mental illness or are healing from trauma, let… Continue reading If You’re Suicidal, Read This